Decide Today – Why Wait Any Longer?

As I stood in my parent’s kitchen, devastated and crumpled with the words…..’I don’t love you for who you are and I will never change’, I felt my world fall apart all around me. Standing there shaking with my husband beside me, I had asked my mother if we could draw the line after 35 years of arguing and anguish and just accept each other for who we were and move on. Now this took guts, this took strength, this took energy and I didn’t get the reply I wanted, those words I was desperate to hear never came.
The words I desperately didn’t want to hear came BUT they were also the words I needed to hear in order for me to make a decision with my life. (I do sometimes wonder where I would be today if I hadn’t have heard those words for myself.)
With a heavy heart and one of the worst visits to my parents’ house, full of guilt, anger, resentment and utter fear I boarded the plane home to Dubai with a decision to make.
I made a pact with myself that once the aircraft wheels had touched the tarmac in Dubai I would know what I was doing with the rest of my life ……turning my back on my parents as I couldn’t cope any longer with the situation OR I would change. Six and a half tearful hours later as the wheels came to a halt my decision was made, there was no going back, that was it, I would change. I had no idea what to do but I knew I would do it.
A few years on, I have changed, totally changed, healed the traumatic relationship with my mother totally alone where we can now enjoy each other’s company, birthday parties, holidays together, walks, chats and the real icing on the cake is buying a piece of land to build our own home near my parents.
So, if you have a decision to make, don’t delay, what are you waiting for? Don’t wait for something to happen…. YOU be the one to make it happen. Time is precious, don’t waste it going over and over the same old stuff – decide what you are going to do and DO IT! I’d love to hear from you.
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